non factor

it's funny how
what you say
doesn't bother me
i don't care
lie lie lie
truth truth truth

it's amusing how
amusing you are to me
on a certain level
i can't even take you seriously
you don't even understand
how little you matter

it's not even worth it
to get angry
to get upset
or to even call you a liar
simply because
you believe every little thing you say

you come and you go
you call and you don't call
you text and you don't text
and the world still spins
my life goes on
the beat goes on

notice that i say things to you
without emotion
no anger
no distress
because i truly couldn't care less

i chuckle
because
you fight so hard
for a position
in my life
that you may never hold

Gray

I am a resident
In the state of confusion
Praying that I can save up enough sense
To move to a new address
It bothers me
That I am so bothered
By this
They say ignorance is bliss
But I say
Not knowing keeps me up at night
So I'm wondering
Which epiphany
Will be my sedative
To lead me to sweet dreams of the future

Right In Writing Fighting Social Media

So you know
So you say you know
What do you know
Especially about what I know?
So that you're hell bent
On telling me what I meant
So knowledgeable of my intent
That there's no way
That you could possibly be wrong
Right?
You can't call me and talk about it
You can't speak to me about it
But you know what I'm saying
Right?
Wrong.

Glass Hopes

I have no words again
Left speechless
Even though I have been here before
It should come as no surprise
That I am left here
To pick up the pieces
Of shattered hopes
Still fragile from the last disappointment
I guess now I am wondering
Whether it's worth it
To summon the shred
Of inner strength and perseverance
To patiently glue my expectations back together
Or just call it
Say that I'm done
Stop trying to give chances
That are quickly becoming scarce
See I get
All wrapped up in who I think I need to be
All trapped up in keeping this life together
Really just now noticing
I am finding happiness in a place
That gets farther and farther away
And as wonderful as that place is
I get filled with a tangle emotions
Mad that happiness is such a long distance
Guilty that I can't bring happiness closer
Sad that this is how it has to be
I just can't get over it
Because I still have to carry on
Someone has to make everything okay
Even as I sweep the pieces of my hope
And wonder what to do with them

Is There Anybody Out There?

I am back! It's crazy that I haven't been back here in a while. I have just been so busy and I have rarely felt inspired. Things have been fair to middling, as the old people say. I have written a few things on the Facebook, that I'll post up here in a bit. In the meantime, it's been a long time, I probably shouldn't have left you without a dope rhyme to get to...;-)

Is there 

Anybody out there

Looking for something

Like me?

That something

Something that

Fills up 

That empty space

You never knew you had

Until it starts aching

Like your stomach

6 hours after breakfast.

Is there

Anybody out there

Who can't figure out

Why when you have taken 

All the puzzle pieces

Out of the box

You have a beautiful scene

With one piece missing

Dead in the center?

Where is that missing piece?!

Can anybody hear me?

IS THERE ANYBODY OUT THERE?!

Wrong

What is wrong? you ask me
I can't even perform the action
to voice my dissatisfaction
to you
How did I get here?
to a place where
all I know is pain
on my face there is a strain
from smiling
so that everyone thinks
I am all right,
even now when I am not
I have this perverse theory
that if I make everyone else happy
some of it will rub off on me
I just need.....
something
somebody
Hell if I know
I just feel needy
I think I just need a life
To live
With people
With hobbies
With love
With laughter
I have been existing
For a while now
I just need life

Womanly (Chinyere's Response)

I am a female
2 breasts
2 ovaries
A cervix
A vagina
A period
And 2 X chromosomes attest to that.

I am a woman
My maturity
My mother
My father
My friends
My home
My life
And my struggles attest to that.

I am a woman
I am a person
I am a human
I am not a doormat
I am not a child

If you want someone to control
Go find a child
That child has come from a woman though
So both women and children
Should be respected
There are no boys without women
There are no men without women.

Oh the hypocrisy
That you sir
Want to take from me
Yet I give to you freely
And would give more if only you ask
Ask humbly
Ask gently
Ask quietly.

Oh the irony
That you john
Want to disrespect me
Yet you brought me here
Yet you left me here
Yet you made me think
That disrespecting and cheapening
My temple is the only way
To survive

Oh the audacity
That you boy
Want to denigrate me
Yet you came from me
Your mother is a woman
Like me
She birthed you and gave you life
Like I will birth and give life
She was once my age
And I will soon be hers
Boy, do you love her?
Do you love your mother?
Would you let any male talk to her
As you talk to me?

Oh the absurdity
That you politician
Want to choose for me
Want to take away my choice
Want me to cede what little control I have
My consent was taken from me
My peace was taken from me
By some random male
Or maybe even someone I know
Now I am with child
All the while
You politician
Want to choose life for this child
When I didn't choose his or her conception
You proclaim the father's rights
What about my rights?
What about my right not to be raped?
What about my right to have closure?
What about my right to have a child without being reminded of their horrible conception?

I am womanly
To be respected
To be understood
To be loved
From my very essence
To my body
So I proclaim this
I assert this
In spite of these
So called men
Who try to
Usurp
And deny
My womanness.