Feelin Myself (4/9)

I'm ridin round & I get it

I'm ridin round & I get it

I'm ridin round & I get it
It's mine, they sent it

It's mine, they sent it

It's mine, they sent it

This my remix & I ain't 2 Chainz
I'm not no lazy broad
I get up & do thangs
Move maine
Get out the way
Handling my bidness
No time to waste 
No need to buy my drink
Yeah I got it
Cuz you really want something else 
And I'm not it
I'm a woman about mines
Never been a jump off
Always got some nice flats
Cuz I stay taking pumps off
Don't need no high heels 
Already stand at 5'9"
My checks never be short
I stay doing overtime
I stay doing homework 
All about the next level 
When it comes to music 
I love the bass & the treble 
Don't forget about the high hat & the snare
When I party both my hands are in the air

I don’t wanna hear about nothing else

Cuz in this moment I’m feelin myself

Cuz in this moment I’m feelin myself

Feelin myself

Fee-feelin myself

I'm ridin round & I get it

I'm ridin round & I get it

I'm ridin round & I get it
It's mine, they sent it

It's mine, they sent it

It's mine, they sent it

No (Social) Life

Blind ambition

I don’t see obstacles

Staying up to 2 am for a paper is fine

Still rising in time

For work at 10 am

I can say that I gave my all

You don’t have to call

And ask about my life

Or my lack thereof

Living only for tomorrow

Is for those who can only afford

To see beyond the end of their nose

I have been blessed and privileged

To be of old money

To have a future to invest in

Testing, testing… 1,2,3.

Can y’all hear me

Clear me

Of the debt

Of your stereotypical womanly expectations

I don’t need to be dating at a certain age

I’m quite fine turning the page

At the guestbook

Of someone else’s wedding reception

Since I have plenty of fine dresses to wear

In order to be the best we

I gotta be the best me

Sorry, Auntie

I have to run and do homework

Nice talking to you

Man of My Thoughts

I could easily write about you

For hours on end

Your great qualities

That I am certain of

Your calmness

Your intelligence

Your passion

Your compassion

Your ambition

Your heart

Your love

I could easily write about you

For hours on end

But will I ever know

The experience of meeting you

Knowing you

Loving you?

I am skeptical

Because Cupid

Has yet to write you in my calendar

So focused on assignments, commutes,

Travel times and classes

Paychecks and school debts

But I know better than to say never

God has proven me wrong several times

So I as think about your jokes

Your seriousness with a mischievous streak

Just your way

I cherish these thoughts

Until I meet you first

Tired (4/6)

Too hard

I tried to

Reconcile

Everything,

Doomed to a long episode of exhaustion and regret.

Easter (4/5)

I have to rise up

Like He did

But I keep getting pulled down

Pride

Pettiness

Anger

Condescension

Are pretty heavy anchors

But I gotta do better

Please Lord, help me get it together.

Vigil

They taught me to wait

In dark, hushed silence

With extinguished candles

In my best tailored outfit

And a jacket to ward off the chill

They taught me to wait

After a group of readings

A flash of light

As we observed and gave praise for His resurrection

They taught me to wait

For he will come to me

For He won’t forsake me

And take me

To evil

They taught me to wait

And for once

In my impatient life

I am so glad I did

Faith

I can’t help but reflect on a day like this

What I was taught to believe

That He

Died for all of us

So I trust and believe

That everything will work out

Thy kingdom come

Thy will be done

On earth, as it is in heaven

But it hurts my heart

To see rules

To see religion

Strip us of the very compassion

That was bestowed upon us

People use their religion to hate others

People use their religion to condemn others

People use their religion to hate and condemn themselves

So I ask

Where’s the love?

Where’s the love in that?

Do we really love Him?

Do we really love ourselves?

Do we really love other?

I have faith

That the answers someday

Will all be yes