It was all a dream
I thought that I met you
And I found someone that would listen
And that someone would get to know me
And that I would get to know them
But
That didn't happen
We talked
We texted
And what do those words really mean?
Now I am just trying to wake up
I really just want to wake up
Can I just please wake up?
This is my life
Chalk it up to another mistake
Sunday, December 2, 2018
Tuesday, February 27, 2018
Substance
I sigh
And wonder why
Sometimes my standards are so high
If I expected a little less
Then I guess
We could probably still be phone friends.
It is not that I hate you
I just can't stand
The disappointment
Of appointment
After appointment
Being cancelled.
I know that you
probably want much more
Than my friendship
But know this
If you can't be my good friend
You can't be my good man
Similar qualities in both relationship are important
Who the hell are you that I will waste my life waiting on you to show up?
Flattery will only get you so far, my good sir
Like cotton candy when I haven't eaten
Words spun nice and sweet
But eventually, I will go and get a burger
Or a slice of pizza
A meal of substance to hold me.
And wonder why
Sometimes my standards are so high
If I expected a little less
Then I guess
We could probably still be phone friends.
It is not that I hate you
I just can't stand
The disappointment
Of appointment
After appointment
Being cancelled.
I know that you
probably want much more
Than my friendship
But know this
If you can't be my good friend
You can't be my good man
Similar qualities in both relationship are important
Who the hell are you that I will waste my life waiting on you to show up?
Flattery will only get you so far, my good sir
Like cotton candy when I haven't eaten
Words spun nice and sweet
But eventually, I will go and get a burger
Or a slice of pizza
A meal of substance to hold me.
Wednesday, October 18, 2017
mom
i could talk about everybody that has got my back
knowing that they could leave me
and possibly turn around and come back
knowing from the very beginning i probably slept against your back
knowing that you yelling at me always kept me on track
even in my heartbreak you never forsake or ever slack
you always helped me picked out my school clothes and back pack
our relationship is an equation that they'll never crack
first best friend
to the end
my mom
Shattered
It was all a dream, huh?
I was fine, to think my own thoughts
To feel my own feels
Guarded
Soft hearted
Never knowing that you could see me
Though I would never say a word
Absurd, though it was
Because we were in a different time and space
I face
The reality
Of things never being the same
You spoke words better left
And I just have to manage
My thoughts
My feelings
Because to think I could just feel
Without consequence
Is a mirror
That has been shattered.
I was fine, to think my own thoughts
To feel my own feels
Guarded
Soft hearted
Never knowing that you could see me
Though I would never say a word
Absurd, though it was
Because we were in a different time and space
I face
The reality
Of things never being the same
You spoke words better left
And I just have to manage
My thoughts
My feelings
Because to think I could just feel
Without consequence
Is a mirror
That has been shattered.
Thursday, September 7, 2017
Thanks But No Thanks
I can't be the one you need
Because it isn't about you
My light doesn't shine
To give you power
The access to my brilliance
Is an accident
I am not here for you
I appreciate your appreciation
Though I am under no obligation
Or inclination
To accept your offer.
Because it isn't about you
My light doesn't shine
To give you power
The access to my brilliance
Is an accident
I am not here for you
I appreciate your appreciation
Though I am under no obligation
Or inclination
To accept your offer.
Thursday, May 19, 2016
To-Do
Sleep
Work
Eat
Study.
Sleep
Work
Eat
Study.
Sleep
Work
Eat
Study.
Sleep
Work
Eat
Study.
No time to breathe.
Sleep
Work
Eat
Study.
Sleep
Work
Eat
Study.
Sleep
Work
Eat
Study.
No time to be.
Friday, May 6, 2016
What It's Like To Be Me
What is it like to be me?
I don't really expect to see many girls like me on the TV
But it's a good thing I don't watch
Bombarded by messages about who I should be and what I should have
It's a good thing I like who I am and what I've got
I have gotten used to being ignored and silence when talking about issues
But it's a good thing I'm stubborn and loud
Groupthink gets people into sticky situations
So it's okay I don't follow the crowd
I work hard and pray harder
There's so much to be done
Sometimes I struggle to take a breath
And oftentimes I wonder
How I keep from from going under
What part of me is left?
What is it like to be me?
Exhausted
Yet grateful
Running from pillar to post
Some days I'm victorious
And others I could just cry
But if anything
I have learned
Both a triumph
And a trial
Start with a try.
I don't really expect to see many girls like me on the TV
But it's a good thing I don't watch
Bombarded by messages about who I should be and what I should have
It's a good thing I like who I am and what I've got
I have gotten used to being ignored and silence when talking about issues
But it's a good thing I'm stubborn and loud
Groupthink gets people into sticky situations
So it's okay I don't follow the crowd
I work hard and pray harder
There's so much to be done
Sometimes I struggle to take a breath
And oftentimes I wonder
How I keep from from going under
What part of me is left?
What is it like to be me?
Exhausted
Yet grateful
Running from pillar to post
Some days I'm victorious
And others I could just cry
But if anything
I have learned
Both a triumph
And a trial
Start with a try.
Wednesday, May 4, 2016
Airtight Exchange (#30)
I wish I was
Strong enough to
Live in a vacuum
Then maybe I could live
Then maybe I could love
Like pure
Love like free
Because this love was fragile
Tenuous
Like a wet paper towel
It could only wipe up the mess if you set it the right way
But we got tangled up and we broke
I write this with no malice
Because it just is
Now
Out here in the air
Strong enough to
Live in a vacuum
Then maybe I could live
Then maybe I could love
Like pure
Love like free
Because this love was fragile
Tenuous
Like a wet paper towel
It could only wipe up the mess if you set it the right way
But we got tangled up and we broke
I write this with no malice
Because it just is
Now
Out here in the air
bewitched (#29)
oh, you
you think you know me so well
you have me under your spell
hell, i'll admit
that it
was hard to resist
your singular charm
i didn't see the harm
of saying yes
after saying no so many times
just tired of being guarded
and lonely-hearted
nobody understands how you did it
least of all me
because i never thought that i was the type
i believed my own hype
so when they ask me
i tell them to ask you
because clearly i have no clue
how you
have me bewitched.
you think you know me so well
you have me under your spell
hell, i'll admit
that it
was hard to resist
your singular charm
i didn't see the harm
of saying yes
after saying no so many times
just tired of being guarded
and lonely-hearted
nobody understands how you did it
least of all me
because i never thought that i was the type
i believed my own hype
so when they ask me
i tell them to ask you
because clearly i have no clue
how you
have me bewitched.
Remote Control (#28)
A foreign object
That rarely stays in my hand
Remotely controls the TV
Remotely from my person
Because I can't seem to find the time
It is no longer mine
Obligations at every turn
My eyes burn
From staring at computer screens
While the TV stares blankly back
That rarely stays in my hand
Remotely controls the TV
Remotely from my person
Because I can't seem to find the time
It is no longer mine
Obligations at every turn
My eyes burn
From staring at computer screens
While the TV stares blankly back
Wednesday, April 27, 2016
Blind Spot (#27)
I always learned
I always knew
That when I was driving
To check my blind spot
But I know now
That it is futile
Because
I can still be blindsided anyway.
I always knew
That when I was driving
To check my blind spot
But I know now
That it is futile
Because
I can still be blindsided anyway.
Heaviness (#26)
Heaviness
Is physical
Mental and
Spiritual
I can remember
Points in my life
At one time or another
Feeling them
Sometimes out of reluctance
Of pain
A soul of lead
Maybe from gunshots
Heard from a song on the radio
Or bad news
Maybe my body is an anchor
Stiff from a hard day's work
Or maybe
My mind anticipates a hard day's work
Is physical
Mental and
Spiritual
I can remember
Points in my life
At one time or another
Feeling them
Sometimes out of reluctance
Of pain
A soul of lead
Maybe from gunshots
Heard from a song on the radio
Or bad news
Maybe my body is an anchor
Stiff from a hard day's work
Or maybe
My mind anticipates a hard day's work
Ecology of Tenacity (#25)
I knew that this wasn't asking
What tenacity is made up of
Or what my tenacity is made up of
Since then it would be
Physiology of Tenacity
But my tenacity reacts
Like Yogi
Stronger than your average bear
I overwhelm and sometimes amaze others
And other times leave them aghast and angry
But it is me
And I won't and don't apologize
What tenacity is made up of
Or what my tenacity is made up of
Since then it would be
Physiology of Tenacity
But my tenacity reacts
Like Yogi
Stronger than your average bear
I overwhelm and sometimes amaze others
And other times leave them aghast and angry
But it is me
And I won't and don't apologize
One Way (#24)
There's only one way
To finish what I've started
With despair and brokenhearted
I know the finish line is there
But for now I can't see it
To finish what I've started
With despair and brokenhearted
I know the finish line is there
But for now I can't see it
Uptown Bliss (#23)
I must admit
Right about now I really hate
The creators of this challenge
Showing the bones, I know
But there's no other place to go
But reality
And the reality is this
Politics is a part of life
Laws and the people who make
Affect everyday decisions
And in some ways, decide the haves and have nots
By what is bought and where it can be bought
By zoning, both residential and commercial
So when I look at a prompt like "Uptown Bliss"
How can I be apolitical about it?
To me it reeks of politics
Both generally and specifically
Generally, people in Uptown are blissful
They have the money
Their kids go to good schools that are better funded
They have grocery stores nearby that are full of healthy food options
They have municipal services that come sooner or on time
But specifically I think of the neighborhood of Uptown, in my city
That has a lot of immigrants and poor and lower middle class people
That has a bad reputation on the North Side of Chicago
So excuse my politics
Maybe it's because I missed the bliss of living in Uptown
Le shrug.
Right about now I really hate
The creators of this challenge
Showing the bones, I know
But there's no other place to go
But reality
And the reality is this
Politics is a part of life
Laws and the people who make
Affect everyday decisions
And in some ways, decide the haves and have nots
By what is bought and where it can be bought
By zoning, both residential and commercial
So when I look at a prompt like "Uptown Bliss"
How can I be apolitical about it?
To me it reeks of politics
Both generally and specifically
Generally, people in Uptown are blissful
They have the money
Their kids go to good schools that are better funded
They have grocery stores nearby that are full of healthy food options
They have municipal services that come sooner or on time
But specifically I think of the neighborhood of Uptown, in my city
That has a lot of immigrants and poor and lower middle class people
That has a bad reputation on the North Side of Chicago
So excuse my politics
Maybe it's because I missed the bliss of living in Uptown
Le shrug.
Nemesis (#22)
As the bees
Buzz to and fro
And descend
Upon the floral colony
To pollinate the buds
In the hope that they will bloom
Spring forth
To bring seasonal adoration
In the hearts and souls of many
For some
This floral colony
Brings tears and shortness of breath
In the eyes and lungs of many
Sneezing, wheezing and runny noses
Congestion
So I must mention
That this colony
This season has become my nemesis
The only thing I like about spring is the fashion
Buzz to and fro
And descend
Upon the floral colony
To pollinate the buds
In the hope that they will bloom
Spring forth
To bring seasonal adoration
In the hearts and souls of many
For some
This floral colony
Brings tears and shortness of breath
In the eyes and lungs of many
Sneezing, wheezing and runny noses
Congestion
So I must mention
That this colony
This season has become my nemesis
The only thing I like about spring is the fashion
Wednesday, April 20, 2016
Playing Boss (#20)
mukisamukisamukismukisa
MukisaMukisaMukisaMukisa
MUKISAMUKISA
WHAT.
What is it?
Fix this
Do this
What is this
Why this
Know this
No. THIS.
Oh
My
Fucking
GAWD
SHUTUPTALKINGTOME!
MukisaMukisaMukisaMukisa
MUKISAMUKISA
WHAT.
What is it?
Fix this
Do this
What is this
Why this
Know this
No. THIS.
Oh
My
Fucking
GAWD
SHUTUPTALKINGTOME!
Tuesday, April 19, 2016
Little Girl (#19)
Little Girl
I wish I could tell you
What I should have heard
What I should have known
But even though I'm late
I'm right on time
Little Girl
I wish I could tell you
That the world will accept you
Just as you are
The way you look
The way you think
But I can't
The world wants to pick you apart
But I want you to be brave
Be yourself Little Girl
You'll be better for it
Little Black Girl
I wish I could tell you
That everyone appreciates you
But I can't
Your skin
Your hair
Your brain
Your heart
They will attack them
And you for them
But I appreciate you
So you appreciate them
And you appreciate you
Little Girl
I wish I could tell you
That it gets easier
You won't have all the answer
You probably never will
But the thrill is in the chase
Live life anyway
Live it WELL
I wish I could tell you
What I should have heard
What I should have known
But even though I'm late
I'm right on time
Little Girl
I wish I could tell you
That the world will accept you
Just as you are
The way you look
The way you think
But I can't
The world wants to pick you apart
But I want you to be brave
Be yourself Little Girl
You'll be better for it
Little Black Girl
I wish I could tell you
That everyone appreciates you
But I can't
Your skin
Your hair
Your brain
Your heart
They will attack them
And you for them
But I appreciate you
So you appreciate them
And you appreciate you
Little Girl
I wish I could tell you
That it gets easier
You won't have all the answer
You probably never will
But the thrill is in the chase
Live life anyway
Live it WELL
Guilty (#18)
Guilty is
An emotion
That deters
The conscientious
That is the weapon
Of the emotional manipulators
And is absent
From those
Human tornadoes
Who go
And wreak havoc
Wreck lives
Break heart
And don't look back
Or maybe they do
To look at the damage
And smile
So let this be your warning
Or your guide
An emotion
That deters
The conscientious
That is the weapon
Of the emotional manipulators
And is absent
From those
Human tornadoes
Who go
And wreak havoc
Wreck lives
Break heart
And don't look back
Or maybe they do
To look at the damage
And smile
So let this be your warning
Or your guide
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